The insane drivel of the one named Salsa

OK, you can not deny those are THE best shoes in the entire world now can you?

I saw them the other day when I went to see hot fuzz, and I was like "O M G!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want them so much!" So, seeing as my cash card hasn't arrived yet I had to wait to get my mum to get them with me.

Today was pretty cool. English was good, it's my favourite subject by the way. Probably because I'm the teachers fave We played mosh pit at lunch. Which is basically where we throw Brad, who's about 5' nothing, at Aaron, who's about 5'6" and built like a rock, and then he throws Brad back at us and it's all good fun ^_^

I'm cutting down on how much I eat, so I only had a mini bread roll with butter for lunch. *pats self on back*

It was really annoying in maths though because my friends didn't believe me when I said I was in Mensa, and I am so it was really frustrating and I felt really dumb

PE was pretty fabby, we all had to go into partners and I was on my own and we were supposed to be passing to one another. So I would just randomly throw my ball at Jennie or steal hers. Then of course (it was inevitable) I stuck my ball up my shirt and pretended I was pregnant, the rest followed suit and we all started belly bumping and stuff. SO much fun.

Guess that's it for today, *waves*

I swear I've put on weight. I don't wanna weigh myself though. just in case I've put on, like, half a stone. *pulls at hair* I haven't eaten too much today though. *panics* Well, I was in the car all day so I can't be to blamed, I was very bored. OK, I weight around 10 stone (140lbs) and I'm 5'5" 3/4.

According to that chart that makes me "OK". Phew. But I do need to loose weight, I'm getting chubby again. NOT GOOD! I'm in a thin phase at the moment. I was practically having a binged for the past two weeks. See, I have lot of different moods, moods of depression, moods of happy ect ect. I also have them of food. I have fat phases where of course I eat loads, then I have my thin phases afterwards where I loose the poundage I recently gained. It normally balances out, so I'm not worried too much... *rereads what I've just written* OK maybe I'm a lil worried

I was in the car all day because my brother had an audition for the National Youth Theatre in Bristol and my rents didn't trust me to be on my own all day ¬_¬ Was just a TAD annoying. I managed to get 3/4s of the way through my books though It's the 4th in the dresden series but I can't remembe the name. Star's making me read it. Tis exceedingly good *nods*

Farethewell my dear pals! *waves*

My brother(Ben) is SO aggravating, I asked him to come off the computer and he says in 15 minutes, so I wait then he won't come off and starts having a fat go at me. Then he complains to mum that I was being mean to him *fumes*

Anyways.

Hot Fuzz ROCKS!!!!!!!!!! Of course we only just got in. It's stupid, who cares if we're half a year too young to see something? The person asked me if I had ID and of course I said no and she asked for my birthday so I said "1991". Yeah, I should've said "12 of the 12, 91" sounds smoother right? But she bought it, then she asked my friend, Dasiy, who isn't the brightest of sparks so she said "1992" I nearly throttled her of course she nipped off to the loos sharpish to leave me to deal with it I managed to convince her that Daisy was 15 last December ¬_¬ Silly bugger

When we were hanging about in town I saw Amy with Olivia and it really p*ssed me off because I wanted to do something with her over the holidays but she kept making up excuses ¬_¬ I'm annoyed at Amy not Olivia by the way. *le sigh* I gave up on her ages ago but I was just so bored.

We also saw Brian and Jake, Brian's aright but Jake is a complete retard. They latched on to us in the sweet shop and followed us into TKmax. I found 2 pairs of really nice shoes! One was rocket dogs with sparkly thread and the others were like clogs with wood for soles, white leather bits that go over covered with lil rainbows and clouds ^_^ Yeah I know I'm a 5 year old... But they're so purdy! I might be getting one of the pairs on monday. I put them out of the view of other people so I can find them next time Hope so, I need new shoes, I think I'll get the clogs because they're more summery *nods* OK, it's true, I'm obsess with shoes. I even have a book on the history of them

I'll leave you with the hotness that is Brian Molko!

Cranio-Sacral Osteopathy.

Yeah you're probably wondering "WTF is that?", well you're not alone. Basically, I've been having some troubles with my monthly lady problems (run for cover men!) so my mum doesn't want me to go on the pill so she wants me to try homoeopathy methods. I guess that's fair enough because the pill can be damaging. BUT, my mum's a bit . She has a diploma in Reki (healing with hands), and she always does it on me when I'm sitting next to her, so I have to make sure she's wearing her watch 'coz she can't do it then. And of course she's nearly got her diploma in hypnotherapy. Yeah, I told you didn't I?

So I went to this guy 3 moths ago and since then there's been NO difference. But, my mum made me go back again. So this is what happened:

We walked in and the place smelled, last time I couldn't put my finger on it but this time I'm more... erm... worldly; it was weed. So, we went into the reception room and got chatting to the very sweet middle aged sectary, I say "we", it was my mum who was talking, I was busy staring at the framed piece of art that looked suspiciously like the upper epidermis of a plant.

Then she announces
"Oh, here he comes now" I freeze, I can here him walking down the creaky stairs, I glance at my mum but she just smiles encouragingly, the evil . Then he walks in, dressed like a classic doctor, but then you look at his face and - oh good god, it's Edward scissor hands without the sexy allure.
"Oh, hello there. Up we go then" He starts leading us up the stairs. O. M. F. G. His voice! It's like, *shivers*, OK, imagine a mildly deep voice, now imagine that voice freakishly calm and quiet. It's weird!.

All the way upstairs he's muttering "That's the way, yes that's the way" we get into his room, gets out his notes from last time and asks me if my health is alright

"Erm, yeah. It's cool." I looked at me mum in a desperate plea for help. I don't know how to reply to those questions, Mum always talks for me in the doctors. After we've beed through all that milarcky he asks me to stand up and he runs his hands down my body still muttering "That's the way, that's the way". It's not really like touching though, because it's so light you can barely feel it.

Then I have to lie down on the table/bed thing and of course I have to "lower my eyelids" like with all these things. So he starts with my head and basically just touches me like he does for absolutly AGES, always saying something crazy, I couldn't really here him though because my brain was screaming "GET THE F*CK OFF OF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I do remember him saying "it's best to be nice and floppy" I think he meant my arm... *whimpers* I never want to be in a room alone with him. I was so thankful to be leave.

I managed to get my cash card sorted, AT LAST! So I can draw out money when I need it.

I've been having fun talking to Star over forums as well *beams*, she seemed to be better today. But over the internet you can be anything you want right? I want her to get better SO much, I don't want to give up, but it's so hard. I'm terrified that if she does go I won't find out because no ones going to post it on the internet are they? *le sigh* Always think positive Salsa

So that's enough for today *waves* Bye!

OK, I'm in such a weird mood right now. It's like every things all jumbledyed up inside. Like I want to be sad and happy at the same time. Oh the confusion!!!!!

I've had a really boring day today, my mums been making me do LOADS of maths revision. OK fair enough I got A 5a (about an E) on my mock SATS, and I'm supposed to be getting 7a's (A) but I really don't need to do 3 different test sheets.... OK maybe I do, but that doesn't mean I can't complain right?

*le sigh* I'm still trying to ignore the whole "one of my best friends in the whole worlds is dying" thing. Because if I think about it I just brake down and cry, and that's not helping anyone now is it? the thing is my friend (Star. Well, Star isn't her real name but it's what I call her) has cancer, she's been battling it for 5 years, I only met her a year ago but she is THE nicest person I've ever met and argh. Even if she is 9 years older then me (I'm 14) . I haven't been able to see her because she had to move upcountry to get better treatment. Cornwall sucks for everything. I keep in touch with her through children's forums, she has the mentallity of a 5 year old .

I'm having some friend troubles at the moment. I say at the moment, I've had them since... well, forever. (cue emo speech) I've always been on the outside of groups and I'm finding it hard being all lonely. I guess it's sad but I generally just talk to people on forums about it, but they don't really count because they're not real.

I'm seeing daisy on Saterday to go see Hot fuzz though, that should be fun. She moved schools when she was in year 8 because apparently she was getting bullied. Pfft is what I say. I get it a lot worse then her. But she's sweet and nice.

Well I guess that's enough of my insanity... For now *evil grin*